Self Awareness Experiencing the Universe

This is a really cool thing to think about…

self-awareness

It’s breathtaking to consider:
You have two eyes, each composed of 130 million photoreceptor cells. In each one of those cells, there are 100 trillion atoms – that’s more than all the stars in the milky way galaxy.

However, each atom in each cell in each eye formed in the core of a star, billions of years ago, and yet, here they are today, being utilized to capture the energy released from that same process.

All to expand the consciousness that is YOU.

The universe has an interesting sense of irony, in that you are the universe experiencing itself – All you are is a thought.

My atoms will return to the universe around me when I pass away. I’ve borrowed them for only a human lifetime but the atoms aren’t mine to keep. My thoughts may just dissipate into the ether… like tears in rain… These thoughts remind me of the beautifully sad Blade Runner soliloquy:

I’ve… seen things you people wouldn’t believe… [laughs] Attack ships on fire off the shoulder of Orion. I watched c-beams glitter in the dark near the Tannhäuser Gate. All those… moments… will be lost in time, like [coughs] tears… in… rain. Time… to die…

The Free Will to Make Changes

“Life move’s pretty fast. If you don’t stop and look around once in awhile, you can miss it.” -Ferris Bueller

It’s been a busy month and next year looks like it will be even busier as something I’m working on for a big career change appears to be working out. I’ll get to work abroad if it does. We’ll get to experience more of this “pale blue dot” and do more to enjoy the variety of life that is available to us humans on this planet as it slowly spins in this little corner of this vast universe. Life is for living and we intend on living it up as much as we can. Otherwise I fear for falling into the ever present cycle of work and home. It begins to wear a rut in our existence as we move through repeated patterns of the same activities and experiences over and over. Every now and then when I notice it happening again, I shake myself awake and take a look at pictures of far away lands and remind myself of my place and perspective in the universe. As far as I know, we only have this one life and I know I have the free will to make changes to how and where I live it.

pale blue dot

I recently read some articles about Sam Harris’ interesting view on Free Will that he put in a very short book. Basically he says that free will is an illusion. When it comes down to it I believe you either act or you don’t and it is a free will choice to make changes or stay with the status quo. Even if the environment around me and the structure and chemicals of my mind really adds up to my choices just being derived from all of that instead of from “me”… well, I still think the choice between “do” or “wait” is the free will we can exercise. Even if we are predetermined to the actions we take when we act, we still have to choose to act. Maybe I was already destined to seek to change jobs but I feel like I had to actively take my recent actions for this path instead of passively waiting for something to happen to me.

In contrast, my religious brother seems to be a bit more passive with life and I often wonder how much he sits back and prays for good things to come to him instead of seeking them out. I believe he can change his path in life simply by doing something, anything, instead of wishing with prayers for the universe to bend to his will through an imagined god. He looks to a mythological super being instead of using whatever free will we have to move within the universe to achieve whatever he wants. I think it’s pretty self-centered and egotistical to expect any aspect of the universe to do anything for us since there’s no true evidence or knowledge that it does or should.

On a final note of changes, my oldest child is 19 and has decided he doesn’t want to continue with college at this point after a lackluster first year of it. He now plans to move to another state with a cheaper cost of living to start his life now. Fortunately he has a pretty good head on his shoulders, a good bit of money saved up, and I think he’ll do fine taking care of himself. He’s given his 2 weeks notice at work here and plans to move out after Labor Day. Yep, it’s been a busy month so far and it probably won’t slow down anytime soon as my little family with our nomadic spirit acts upon that trait. I’ll try to post things about agnosticism as I see it when I have a chance. You may hear more crickets than mumblings as we ramble on through our lives without knowledge of gods. Such things are beyond us and ultimately unimportant for us to live good and meaningful lives on this planet.

Led Zeppelin – Ramble On

Leaves are falling all around
It’s time i was on my way.
Thanks to you i’m much obliged
For such a pleasant stay.
But now it’s time for me to go
The autumn moon lights my way.
For now i smell the rain
And with it pain
And it’s headed my way.
Ah sometimes i grow so tired
But i know i’ve got one thing i got to do

ramble on
And now’s the time the time is now
To sing my song.
I’m goin’ ’round the world,
I got to find my girl, on my way.
I’ve been this way ten years to the day, ramble on,
Gotta find the queen of all my dreams.

Got no time to for spreadin’ roots,
The time has come to be gone.
And tho’ our health we drank a thousand times,
It’s time to ramble on…..